It hit me today…
Well, shoot. It hit me. I’m sad. Tears keep threatening to fall. That’s not my cup of tea.
One thing I’ve learned over the last year is to allow myself to feel. That literally makes me uncomfortable to type out. It sounds so “wussy” and “dramatic” to me. Why am I that way? I do NOT enjoy just sitting and camping out on any feelings other than happy ones. I mean, why would you? It makes no sense to me. But, after some hard life lessons that could have been avoided … I realize it’s important to allow yourself to feel, no matter what the feeling. Camp on it, nah.
“Ain’t nobody got time for that!” ?
… but allow it, address the root. Work through it.
So blogging is my “work through” and if you’re reading it, just know it’s my heart. Unpolished. Maybe it’ll bless you in some way. That’s my desire.
So I’m sad today. I’ve been so busy trying to get a family of 6 from a house to a fifth wheel (that we don’t even have yet) in a few weeks. Busy is a great way to avoid feelings and I can be the master of that ??♀️
This morning my heart flooded with memories. My eyes flooded with sad tears. I am going to miss them. A lot. And I’m sad about that. I will miss my entire family. My friends. My community. My creeks. My holler. But there are a select few that are in our lives constantly. Day in and day out. Through all of the seasons. The natural seasons, emotional seasons and spiritual seasons. This is my tribe ❤️